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Thursday, 25 June 2009

  • Man, it has been a while.

    Hey hey, yeah I know. Hiatus for a while, yes I know. Been alot going on and what not. First off, ad about three jobs and all of them went to hell, The fourth one, it's fun. But I need another job. Pay off my chase bill and then I'm home free to try and be me and such. I'm thinking about going back to college, but I don't think that my mind is into it really. College bored me when I was there. I just went to the classes, did the work and just that was that.

    Heh, most of my associates and personal friends are either graduating right now     or preparing to. Which makes me both overjoyed and fill up with sadness. Sadness because I wish that I was complete or almost complete with college and overjoyed because at least they're doing their thing.

    Anywho, just checking on here and what not. I'll drop some poems and stories whenever I can get time that is. lol

    Thanks again everyone.

    -DR.

Friday, 29 February 2008

Friday, 18 May 2007

  • Currently Reading
    Dangerous Games (Riley Jensen, Guardian, Book 4)
    By Keri Arthur
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    "A Tormented Mind."

    Realization has hit me from somewhere so far away,
    Yet so very deeply from within,
    that I do not know of what to say or how to react.
    I just so wish to be shown the way.
    I am just so very sorry for not asking for help before,
    Waiting until it is too little too late to start to try to.

    I wish to stop this constant flow of tears,
    I need to stop the pain that haunts my daily thoughts;
    from of my own everyday inflictions,
    from my own past judgments,
    and also from myself and how I think that I should live.

    I am still awaiting for anyone to clearly show me what is it that I have done wrong.
    Have I even done something so terrible?
    Have I miscalculated so very much that I've hurt not only myself but others as well?
    What I've wanted to do,
    What I've really wanted to say,
    I cannot;
    I am just too much of a coward to do so.

    I do not wish for someone else to do it for me,
    my only wish is to be shown a way.
    Without having or making it seem as if I am using someone,
    Making me think;
    the very thoughts seem as if I have done so to begin with.
    I do not wish to use.
    I do not want to hurt.
    I just wish to stop the knawing pain in my gut,
    Wondering if anything;
    If I could try again.
    Wanting to, but stopping myself from the giving the chance.

    Locking it away,
    knowing that another chance is nowhere to be created.
    I wish to sit and wait,
    even if I see before myself a line that I must never cross;
    Even if my body,
    My mind,
    and even if my tainted soul yearns to do so.

    But was I right to just sit by and do nothing?
    Or should I just leave it be?
  • Currently Listening
    Special Occasion
    By Bobby Valentino
    Anonymous
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    "Tired of it all."

    My peace is threatened by my lack of security,
    I do not feel that I belong.
    Looking back at the pieces of myself that I had left long ago,
    To only reminisce,
    Not to build back or rearrange;
    Just seeing what I once was.
    Trying to recreate the image of myself from back then,
    needing it as much as I greedily beg for the light that has faded from the depths of me.
    Can you see that I am tired of it all?
    Tired of falling back,
    the energy depleted soul of mine crying out for the lost of happiness?
    I guess that you cannot begin to sense,
    have the eyes to see,
    or notice this at all.
    I wish that you were all not blind to the pain that is radiating from within me,
    because then you all would begin to start to see,
    finally be able to understand;
    not look to fill me with your commands.

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